So you want to make a difference???

I know two people in two different states who have repeatedly talked about "helping others" and "making a difference in the world".
Their statements are the same.
"I really feel like God wants me to help people...."
"I was meant to do something great and help a bunch of people!"
I understand their sentiment and yes, it is admirable but watching them and how they treat others....makes me wonder. They keep waiting to help people.
This doesn't make any sense.
Jesus talks about helping people with what you have. Literally. The new testament reports stories of the miracles he performed, by multiplying what the disciples had at that moment, to help those in need. So to be honest, if you don't have millions of dollars to give or to use to "help" others, let's make it simple....what do you have? We all have something. Use what you have to help someone.
There are so many people around us who are broken and hurting....we could ALL pitch in to spread the love of Christ. The harvest is plentiful remember?
Why do we have to wait until we make big money, or strike it rich? Why do we have to be famous to help people? Can't we just help our neighbor? If you're asking yourself...what neighbor? I'm talking about the one living next to you! The one at your job, the lady in the grocery line! ANYONE! It doesn't take millions of dollars to change lives. If money were required, then Jesus would have been born into a wealthy family. He would have lived a life LOADED, while throwing money to every poor soul, changing lives with every coin!! Except.....that didn't happen. Jesus was broke, homeless and STILL changes lives today.
So what can your money do? I'm not saying don't use the dollar to aid others. That's not what I'm saying at all. I AM saying don't wait to make a bunch of money to help people. That's not how it works.
If the Lord blesses you with a little and you refuse to use that little to bless others, then why should he trust you with a lot? (Luke 16:10)
Just saying.

Thoughts of a Jesus Lover

Yesterday evening, as my husband and I walked into Walmart, we noticed a small group of men. These men were selling "cross" necklaces for $5.00 to help fund their ministry to reach addicted individuals. They were all graduates from Teen Challenge. As John and I were leaving, we decided to take out some extra cash and give to their ministry.
I asked one man, if they were successful or making a lot of sales. His response was unsettling.
"No. Pensacola is hard. The people here are hard to reach."
I left feeling so sad. 'The people are hard to reach?'
I spoke about this to a few dear friends, and I think they were a little shocked about this too. After further conversation, one of my friends voiced her opinion. She speculated that maybe people are desensitized to the church. She says there are 700 churches in Pensacola alone. So maybe people see Christianity over and over again, and they are no longer receptive, because it's everywhere.
I thought about that....maybe she was right.
But then...I started to feel a deeper level of sadness.
700 churches. That's a rather big army.
If there are truly 700 "churches" obedient to Christ, in Pensacola, with active and spirit filled members, shouldn't we see a Revolution? A transformation? Shouldn't the people of Pensacola NOT be tired or wary of the church, but changed? Renewed? Healed? Rejoicing? Full of hope? Full of faith? Filled with joy? Seeking peace? Seeking relationship? Seeking God?
See....you cannot, and I repeat, you Cannot have a real encounter with Jesus and remain unchanged. He is the author and creator of life. God is all about fixing, renewing and rebuilding each of us so we can live our life as HE intended...which I promise, is far better than anything you and I have planned or anyone else for that matter.
The spirit is FULL of life! And each of us, as an ambassador of Christ should live a life to reflect his spirit. Right? They should hear his name and the gospel and as we sow the seeds, the Lord will do the rest. I should hope when people see me, they see Jesus, not Mary. Not you...right?
Of course, realistically, you will face stubbornness, denial, refusal and every other act of rebellion against our Father. But we should never falter or QUIT. We MUST spread the word. We MUST love and teach about Jesus.
And church, people of pensacola who attend church, if we cannot do this and reap the harvest Jesus so clearly explains is ready(Luke 10:2), then what exactly are we doing?
The thought that there are 700 churches and people are perhaps, tired of hearing about Jesus? What are we doing?

Update

Random posts.
I seem to write a lot of these.
I am inconsistent and sometimes ignore the call to write. I believe my journaling aka...blogs can be somewhat depressing. But I do like to keep a record of my life.
I am happily married to the most wonderful man on earth. His name is John. We do not have children. We have instead, a fur baby.
I work for a billing company and try my best to clear claims. I love my job but hate the festering drama. Women are dramatic, controlling, manipulative and jealous. All traits I find repulsive. I used to try and make friends....now I hesitate to trust anyone with my life. I dare not speak too much of my past, my history. As soon as you display your secrets, your most precious jewels...the thieves come to steal it all away. They never handle you with care. Instead, they abuse you. And I've had enough.
So I keep my work and personal life separate. It works better this way.
I also love the fact, that while I am writing this, my dear husband is reading every word. He's so nosey...and I find it so cute. Most people would be annoyed I guess. Not me. Ahhhh....that was off the subject. So back to my life...
Work, work, work. I'm trying to get an exercise routine going. I've been walking with my husband a minimum of 2 days a week. Meals? Still working that part out. But this is a journey that takes time, trial and error. I want to win this time and not just so I can look good. But so I can FEEL good. Feel healthy. This is more important than being sexy. (Although I must admit, I am a very sexy woman...when the moment calls for me to seductive)
Health is your wealth. I watched 70 year old man dance for 15 minutes straight during worship. He told me he's been active since he was young. He knew it was important to be healthy. Now he's 70 years old and looks great! Moves wonderfully.
I wanna be like him when I grow up.
Music. I still love to sing. I want to write music but haven't had the motivation. I want to write a novel...no motivation. I want to start a life group. No motivation. I'm in a funk I guess. Lazy? I dunno. But I am going to try my best to move out of it. I won't be here for long.
Something new will begin. I feel it.
I've been wanting to have a baby. A baby boy. We even picked out a name. Noah Jonathan Walker. John isn't ready yet. God knows the right time.
*sigh*
Guess I'm done for today.

Funky Funk

Change.
I don't particularly like change and I don't welcome it. I prefer to remain as I am. No changes, nothing remarkable and yet....
Here I am, typing out my emotions on a blog that some random will read. I feel...lost. Or something is definitely missing. I wish I knew what it was, or why I feel like this. But I'm....not sure how to word it. Maybe Im tired.
Tired of my job
Tired of my apartment
Tired of my weight
Tired of uncaring/unloving people
Tired of being frustrated
Tired of being Tired. LOL
I haven't spent the time I want with the Lord. My new job has made me very angry and bitter. So...instead of diving MORE into the word, I've read it here and there.
Maybe this is a season. A part of my life that's changing. I dunno.
At my job, I managed to make a life long friend. Her name is Marta. I love her dearly and thank the Lord for someone like her. She's not needy or overbearing. She's a lot like me. LOL.
I haven't been to church in a month. We went today and I was disappointed when I left. Havent been there a month and NO one has missed us.
Whatever. Just not feeling Harvest right now.
I start a new job April 13, 2015. I pray that it is something I enjoy.
My life is blessed but I feel so crappy right now.

For those of you that read this, please pray that this funk passes quickly.
Thank you.

MW