Lord,
You know me..better than I know myself. I know when my mother in law is trying to get something started. She looks for a reason to go off on John and make him feel bad.
Today...she tells me that they are going to do bible studies on Saturdays. She asked me if John told me, and I explained that he did tell me but did not tell me the day we would hold bible study. She runs into John and then asks him why he did not tell me about bible study. He defends himself and she says that I told her...I did not know. She lied. Again. Why is this woman constantly lying on me?
God...why am I here with these people? I walk back into the house to bring John a controller and Virginia is hollering that I need to get rid of John...get him out of the house because he is dirty. He looked disgruntled and aggravated. I'm tired of them constantly putting him down. This place is tainted..I want our own space.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Monday, July 9, 2012
Rainbow colored Oreo
The rainbow colored Oreo. Yeah, I saw it. People were upset (including myself) that Oreo supports homosexuality. Many of us, who are against it, posted some rude and/or insulting comments about the picture of the rainbow oreo. Some facebookers suggested they would support Oreo all the more for their statement. Others vowed to never buy an oreo again. I even jumped in on the bashing party...posting that the color of the rainbow belongs to the Lord. The rainbow is a beautiful thing and homosexuals have no rights to claim it. I remember stating that the rainbow could not be perverted because it was beautiful and a promise from God. Apparently, what I said offended someone.
It bothered him so much, he took out the time to email me.
The message was ugly. I read it with shock. I couldn't believe that a random person would take out the time to send me such an angry email. He was mad, and gave me a piece of his mind.
I read it again and again...and decided I wanted to write him back. Was I upset? Yes. At first, I was upset that he was cussing me and calling me names. Then I realized...this is not about me. This is not who this person was designed to be. The enemy is working through him. Besides, if I were to email him back in the same manner arguing...how would this glorify God? The kid was an aethist. So this was another issue. Should I email him back in anger and expect positive results, or should I live by the Word of God and forgive my brother who knows no better?
I chose the latter. I emailed him back with kindness.
Mystery Man: God does not exist and i will prove it by using your own words. So if i say, im am an ateist by the way, if i say the world has always been here you a christian say no its no possible things cant always exist. Then i could say that the world came out of nowhere you say no thats not possible it had to have a creator. So im sorry bitch but your god has to follow the logic rule you christians made. If the universe cant come out of nothing because thats not possible then neither can your god. If my universe cant come out of nowhere like your rules state than your god cant always have been here. So fuck off. Oh but wait he can come out of nothing or always exist cause he is gos rite. Fuck off. Stop coming on a gay pride webpage and bashing. You dont even follow your bibles rules.reply i beg i wanna here a narrow minded christians answer for this valid and extremly legitiment ptoof that your god is fake. So reply please.
Interesting right? He completely changed his tone. I want to dedicate this post to the young gentleman who emailed me back. He was kind and very confused. He did not understand the truth of things and lashed out at me.
Lord, I pray for the gentleman that emailed me...I pray that one day he will make a decision on his OWN to follow your decrees and seek your face. God I pray that this man will become the true man of God that you have designed him to be. I pray against those that may turn him from the left or the right. I pray that he can see your glory and your existence in his life. He needs proof, or feels he needs proof to believe. Father...show him that you exist! Show him that you are mighty and his helper! He does not understand why there is so much evil in the world...he does not recognize the sin in his life. Show him Father..that you are the way, the truth and the light. You are everything we need. You alone.
I won't give up praying for him and many more. Guide him Jesus...guide him to you. Let him be bold when he comes to know you! Let him proclaim all your goodness without shame!
I ask in Jesus' name.
Amen
It bothered him so much, he took out the time to email me.
The message was ugly. I read it with shock. I couldn't believe that a random person would take out the time to send me such an angry email. He was mad, and gave me a piece of his mind.
I read it again and again...and decided I wanted to write him back. Was I upset? Yes. At first, I was upset that he was cussing me and calling me names. Then I realized...this is not about me. This is not who this person was designed to be. The enemy is working through him. Besides, if I were to email him back in the same manner arguing...how would this glorify God? The kid was an aethist. So this was another issue. Should I email him back in anger and expect positive results, or should I live by the Word of God and forgive my brother who knows no better?
I chose the latter. I emailed him back with kindness.
June 28
Mystery Man: Okay, sorry for being rude. I was mad. At that time. I am not able to beleive in god, because everything I know tells me he isn't real. If he is I am not deserving to beleive. What my statement ment was 'christians argue with atheists that something, the universe, can't come out of nothing. And, if an atheist were to say that the universe has always been here, a christian would argue that it isn't possible because every creation needs a creator. But, then your god would have to follow the same rule. If the univerese can't come out of nothing becaude according to you it's not possible, than by your own rule than neither can god. Also, the pope recently stated that atheists were responsible for all cruelty and injustice that has ever existed. Yeah millions of jews were killed by hitler. Who was an atheist. But he was phsyco. But, all 11 million of his murder victims do not begin to amount to the 100's of milions that have been killed by catholics and christians in the presuit of, and in the name of god. And what about 9-11 that was a religous person killing people for their god. And the spanish inqusition, where thousands of people every day were drawn and qaurtered and strectched and beat for god. The pope is a terrible man. Im sorry but to much proves the fallacy of pleading that all god beleivers show but no proven facts of his existence. Sorry if I made you mad or hurt your feelings. I was angred. People freaking out over an oreo cookie being a rainbow, that makes me embarassed to be a human.
Mary Ann Walker: Apology accepted! Ahh! It was the comment about the oreo cookie! Hmm...I've always thought the rainbow was a beautiful thing! I did make a harsh comment! I remember now. I was upset at that time as well. So I apologize for offending you. People hate the color of the rainbow. And rainbows are beautiful :)
A few things.... the Pope, Hitler, Spanish inquisition folk, 9-11 folk, and others using Christianity or their "religion" or whatever as a scapegoat...are prime examples of corruption. Power, money, fame, and authority are all tools which lead them to their own destruction. They served themselves and did as they pleased thus resulting in their downfall. Every action...has a reaction. Everything we do..has a consequence.
Not every Christian...who calls themself a Christian...IS a Christian. People are corrupt, no matter what color, size, shape, race, or position they are in. The statement that aethists are the cause for all cruelty and injustice is a joke! If the Pope really knew the Word of the Lord, he would know that the same people who "believed" in Christ, crucified him and had him killed. They were not atheist by any means. They thought they were doing the work of God. They beat him, spit on him, literally ripped his flesh from his body and drove nails into his hands and feet while he was still alive, to hang him on a cross. Once again, they did all this, in the name of God. Were these people Christian? No. The were FAR from God.
Oh...and the Pope is Catholic. I do not agree much with anything Catholics believe. I think they are strange and very cultish.
Anyways, What about the "religious" people who go out and murder doctors who practice abortion? Or the Christian girl that murdered a younger girl just to see what it feels like? (she went to church that same evening after she murdered another human being) There is not one group of people to blame for the tragedy in our world. Destruction comes in all shapes and sizes. Who said that Christians are perfect? We struggle every day. Everyone does!
Also Christianity does not exmept me, or anyone else from obeying the law. There are bad apples in every apple tree.
I, myself, do not choose to generalize. If I did, I would hate every blonde, blue eyed girl for the abuse I suffered as a small child. She made a mistake, and caused me pain...but I do not generalize and condemn everyone else with features like hers for because of my past.
Lots of christians leave a bad taste in my mouth too..but not every one of us condemns you.
I want to tell you thank you for replying to my message. I am very happy you responded!
Yeah...the oreo cookie was pretty..and people immediately jumped the gun. Christians started rambling their mouth...myself included! And we said a LOT of things that were inappropriate. I apologize for them and myself.
If there are any questions or anything you want to discuss with me....please feel free to contact me. I don't mind at all. :) I hope you had a wonderful weekend! Take care.
Mary
P.S. Want proof that God exisits...read about how God has intervened in people's lives. Ever hear stories of how ladies lift cars off their children who are pinned down? Or have been miraculously healed with NO treatment from a terminal disease?
Look at yourself in the mirror. You didn't JUST happen. You have a purpose in life. Ask God...(and if you don't believe that He exists then it's okay to just talk into the air) to show you that He is real. You don't think He won't do just that?
I hope I have not offended you. Thanks again for responding.
It has been an honor speaking with you! Goodnight!
A few things.... the Pope, Hitler, Spanish inquisition folk, 9-11 folk, and others using Christianity or their "religion" or whatever as a scapegoat...are prime examples of corruption. Power, money, fame, and authority are all tools which lead them to their own destruction. They served themselves and did as they pleased thus resulting in their downfall. Every action...has a reaction. Everything we do..has a consequence.
Not every Christian...who calls themself a Christian...IS a Christian. People are corrupt, no matter what color, size, shape, race, or position they are in. The statement that aethists are the cause for all cruelty and injustice is a joke! If the Pope really knew the Word of the Lord, he would know that the same people who "believed" in Christ, crucified him and had him killed. They were not atheist by any means. They thought they were doing the work of God. They beat him, spit on him, literally ripped his flesh from his body and drove nails into his hands and feet while he was still alive, to hang him on a cross. Once again, they did all this, in the name of God. Were these people Christian? No. The were FAR from God.
Oh...and the Pope is Catholic. I do not agree much with anything Catholics believe. I think they are strange and very cultish.
Anyways, What about the "religious" people who go out and murder doctors who practice abortion? Or the Christian girl that murdered a younger girl just to see what it feels like? (she went to church that same evening after she murdered another human being) There is not one group of people to blame for the tragedy in our world. Destruction comes in all shapes and sizes. Who said that Christians are perfect? We struggle every day. Everyone does!
Also Christianity does not exmept me, or anyone else from obeying the law. There are bad apples in every apple tree.
I, myself, do not choose to generalize. If I did, I would hate every blonde, blue eyed girl for the abuse I suffered as a small child. She made a mistake, and caused me pain...but I do not generalize and condemn everyone else with features like hers for because of my past.
Lots of christians leave a bad taste in my mouth too..but not every one of us condemns you.
I want to tell you thank you for replying to my message. I am very happy you responded!
Yeah...the oreo cookie was pretty..and people immediately jumped the gun. Christians started rambling their mouth...myself included! And we said a LOT of things that were inappropriate. I apologize for them and myself.
If there are any questions or anything you want to discuss with me....please feel free to contact me. I don't mind at all. :)
I hope you had a wonderful weekend! Take care. Mary
P.S. Want proof that God exisits...read about how God has intervened in people's lives. Ever hear stories of how ladies lift cars off their children who are pinned down? Or have been miraculously healed with NO treatment from a terminal disease?
Look at yourself in the mirror. You didn't JUST happen. You have a purpose in life. Ask God...(and if you don't believe that He exists then it's okay to just talk into the air) to show you that He is real. You don't think He won't do just that?
I hope I have not offended you. Thanks again for responding.
It has been an honor speaking with you! Goodnight!
Mystery Man: Goodnight. :)
Interesting right? He completely changed his tone. I want to dedicate this post to the young gentleman who emailed me back. He was kind and very confused. He did not understand the truth of things and lashed out at me.
Lord, I pray for the gentleman that emailed me...I pray that one day he will make a decision on his OWN to follow your decrees and seek your face. God I pray that this man will become the true man of God that you have designed him to be. I pray against those that may turn him from the left or the right. I pray that he can see your glory and your existence in his life. He needs proof, or feels he needs proof to believe. Father...show him that you exist! Show him that you are mighty and his helper! He does not understand why there is so much evil in the world...he does not recognize the sin in his life. Show him Father..that you are the way, the truth and the light. You are everything we need. You alone.
I won't give up praying for him and many more. Guide him Jesus...guide him to you. Let him be bold when he comes to know you! Let him proclaim all your goodness without shame!
I ask in Jesus' name.
Amen
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Sabbath Day
I was reading some of the Word tonight...and realized something:
Sunday is the Sabbath. I cannot do any work. This day is a dedication to the Lord...
O-M-GOSh...what have I been doing?
God says to the Israelites..
8 “Remember to observe the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 You have six days each week for your ordinary work, 10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath day of rest dedicated to the Lord your God. On that day no one in your household may do any work. This includes you, your sons and daughters, your male and female servants, your livestock, and any foreigners living among you. 11 For in six days the Lord made the heavens, the earth, the sea, and everything in them; but on the seventh day he rested. That is why the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and set it apart as holy."
Exodus 20:8-12
So I thought about it...read these verses again and then again...then a few choice words caught my eye...wait--The Lord said, "You have six days each week for your ordinary work." Ordinary work?
I normally wash dishes, clean, cook, wash clothes, cater to my husband...these are normal duties. But, on the Sabbath day...I cannot do these things, for Sunday is Holy? Dedicated to the Lord?
Talk about disappointing the Father..again and again. I can't begin to count the times I have cleaned and cooked on a Sunday. Why just today...I cleaned and cooked. Washed dishes and made sure everything was tip top for Monday morning. I did my ordinary work. I sinned.
It's so easy to misunderstand and OVER complicate things. It's also very easy to overlook His Word and just go on about your way. You read and comprehend what you want right? Wrong.
God is specific, and He knows what each of us are doing. He asks that we obey His word and abide by his rules. Why is this such a challenge sometimes?
I skipped back to Exodus 16 which depicts the story of the Israelites cooking on Saturday and eating the remaining food that they cooked on Sunday..to keep that day Holy.
4 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Look, I’m going to rain down food from heaven for you. Each day the people can go out and pick up as much food as they need for that day. I will test them in this to see whether or not they will follow my instructions. 5 On the sixth day they will gather food, and when they prepare it, there will be twice as much as usual.”
6 So Moses and Aaron said to all the people of Israel, “By evening you will realize it was the Lord who brought you out of the land of Egypt. 7 In the morning you will see the glory of the Lord, because he has heard your complaints, which are against him, not against us. What have we done that you should complain about us?” 8 Then Moses added, “The Lord will give you meat to eat in the evening and bread to satisfy you in the morning, for he has heard all your complaints against him. What have we done? Yes, your complaints are against the Lord, not against us.”
9 Then Moses said to Aaron, “Announce this to the entire community of Israel: ‘Present yourselves before the Lord, for he has heard your complaining.’” 10 And as Aaron spoke to the whole community of Israel, they looked out toward the wilderness. There they could see the awesome glory of the Lord in the cloud.
11 Then the Lord said to Moses, 12 “I have heard the Israelites’ complaints. Now tell them, ‘In the evening you will have meat to eat, and in the morning you will have all the bread you want. Then you will know that I am the Lord your God.’”
13 That evening vast numbers of quail flew in and covered the camp. And the next morning the area around the camp was wet with dew. 14 When the dew evaporated, a flaky substance as fine as frost blanketed the ground. 15 The Israelites were puzzled when they saw it. “What is it?” they asked each other. They had no idea what it was.
And Moses told them, “It is the food the Lord has given you to eat. 16 These are the Lord’s instructions: Each household should gather as much as it needs. Pick up two quarts[c] for each person in your tent.”
17 So the people of Israel did as they were told. Some gathered a lot, some only a little. 18 But when they measured it out,[d] everyone had just enough. Those who gathered a lot had nothing left over, and those who gathered only a little had enough. Each family had just what it needed.
19 Then Moses told them, “Do not keep any of it until morning.” 20 But some of them didn’t listen and kept some of it until morning. But by then it was full of maggots and had a terrible smell. Moses was very angry with them.
21 After this the people gathered the food morning by morning, each family according to its need. And as the sun became hot, the flakes they had not picked up melted and disappeared. 22 On the sixth day, they gathered twice as much as usual—four quarts[e] for each person instead of two. Then all the leaders of the community came and asked Moses for an explanation. 23 He told them, “This is what the Lord commanded: Tomorrow will be a day of complete rest, a holy Sabbath day set apart for the Lord. So bake or boil as much as you want today, and set aside what is left for tomorrow.”
24 So they put some aside until morning, just as Moses had commanded. And in the morning the leftover food was wholesome and good, without maggots or odor. 25 Moses said, “Eat this food today, for today is a Sabbath day dedicated to the Lord. There will be no food on the ground today. 26 You may gather the food for six days, but the seventh day is the Sabbath. There will be no food on the ground that day.”
27 Some of the people went out anyway on the seventh day, but they found no food. 28 The Lord asked Moses, “How long will these people refuse to obey my commands and instructions? 29 They must realize that the Sabbath is the Lord’s gift to you. That is why he gives you a two-day supply on the sixth day, so there will be enough for two days. On the Sabbath day you must each stay in your place. Do not go out to pick up food on the seventh day.” 30 So the people did not gather any food on the seventh day."
Exodus 16:1-30
I've done my regular duties again and again..thinking they were not work when indeed they were.
I think it's time I pay more attention to what I read. I asked for a word tonight...and I got one.
Father forgive me for my ignorance. I misread and did not fully ask you to explain the true meaning of your command. I pray that you correct me in the future and guide me down your path of righteousness so that I may glorify your name in everything I do.
In Jesus' name..Amen
Sunday is the Sabbath. I cannot do any work. This day is a dedication to the Lord...
O-M-GOSh...what have I been doing?
God says to the Israelites..
8 “Remember to observe the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 You have six days each week for your ordinary work, 10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath day of rest dedicated to the Lord your God. On that day no one in your household may do any work. This includes you, your sons and daughters, your male and female servants, your livestock, and any foreigners living among you. 11 For in six days the Lord made the heavens, the earth, the sea, and everything in them; but on the seventh day he rested. That is why the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and set it apart as holy."
Exodus 20:8-12
So I thought about it...read these verses again and then again...then a few choice words caught my eye...wait--The Lord said, "You have six days each week for your ordinary work." Ordinary work?
I normally wash dishes, clean, cook, wash clothes, cater to my husband...these are normal duties. But, on the Sabbath day...I cannot do these things, for Sunday is Holy? Dedicated to the Lord?
Talk about disappointing the Father..again and again. I can't begin to count the times I have cleaned and cooked on a Sunday. Why just today...I cleaned and cooked. Washed dishes and made sure everything was tip top for Monday morning. I did my ordinary work. I sinned.
It's so easy to misunderstand and OVER complicate things. It's also very easy to overlook His Word and just go on about your way. You read and comprehend what you want right? Wrong.
God is specific, and He knows what each of us are doing. He asks that we obey His word and abide by his rules. Why is this such a challenge sometimes?
I skipped back to Exodus 16 which depicts the story of the Israelites cooking on Saturday and eating the remaining food that they cooked on Sunday..to keep that day Holy.
Exodus 16
New Living Translation (NLT)
Manna and Quail from Heaven
16 Then the whole community of Israel set out from Elim and journeyed into the wilderness of Sin,[a] between Elim and Mount Sinai. They arrived there on the fifteenth day of the second month, one month after leaving the land of Egypt.[b] 2 There, too, the whole community of Israel complained about Moses and Aaron.
3 “If only the Lord had killed us back in Egypt,” they moaned. “There we sat around pots filled with meat and ate all the bread we wanted. But now you have brought us into this wilderness to starve us all to death.”4 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Look, I’m going to rain down food from heaven for you. Each day the people can go out and pick up as much food as they need for that day. I will test them in this to see whether or not they will follow my instructions. 5 On the sixth day they will gather food, and when they prepare it, there will be twice as much as usual.”
6 So Moses and Aaron said to all the people of Israel, “By evening you will realize it was the Lord who brought you out of the land of Egypt. 7 In the morning you will see the glory of the Lord, because he has heard your complaints, which are against him, not against us. What have we done that you should complain about us?” 8 Then Moses added, “The Lord will give you meat to eat in the evening and bread to satisfy you in the morning, for he has heard all your complaints against him. What have we done? Yes, your complaints are against the Lord, not against us.”
9 Then Moses said to Aaron, “Announce this to the entire community of Israel: ‘Present yourselves before the Lord, for he has heard your complaining.’” 10 And as Aaron spoke to the whole community of Israel, they looked out toward the wilderness. There they could see the awesome glory of the Lord in the cloud.
11 Then the Lord said to Moses, 12 “I have heard the Israelites’ complaints. Now tell them, ‘In the evening you will have meat to eat, and in the morning you will have all the bread you want. Then you will know that I am the Lord your God.’”
13 That evening vast numbers of quail flew in and covered the camp. And the next morning the area around the camp was wet with dew. 14 When the dew evaporated, a flaky substance as fine as frost blanketed the ground. 15 The Israelites were puzzled when they saw it. “What is it?” they asked each other. They had no idea what it was.
And Moses told them, “It is the food the Lord has given you to eat. 16 These are the Lord’s instructions: Each household should gather as much as it needs. Pick up two quarts[c] for each person in your tent.”
17 So the people of Israel did as they were told. Some gathered a lot, some only a little. 18 But when they measured it out,[d] everyone had just enough. Those who gathered a lot had nothing left over, and those who gathered only a little had enough. Each family had just what it needed.
19 Then Moses told them, “Do not keep any of it until morning.” 20 But some of them didn’t listen and kept some of it until morning. But by then it was full of maggots and had a terrible smell. Moses was very angry with them.
21 After this the people gathered the food morning by morning, each family according to its need. And as the sun became hot, the flakes they had not picked up melted and disappeared. 22 On the sixth day, they gathered twice as much as usual—four quarts[e] for each person instead of two. Then all the leaders of the community came and asked Moses for an explanation. 23 He told them, “This is what the Lord commanded: Tomorrow will be a day of complete rest, a holy Sabbath day set apart for the Lord. So bake or boil as much as you want today, and set aside what is left for tomorrow.”
24 So they put some aside until morning, just as Moses had commanded. And in the morning the leftover food was wholesome and good, without maggots or odor. 25 Moses said, “Eat this food today, for today is a Sabbath day dedicated to the Lord. There will be no food on the ground today. 26 You may gather the food for six days, but the seventh day is the Sabbath. There will be no food on the ground that day.”
27 Some of the people went out anyway on the seventh day, but they found no food. 28 The Lord asked Moses, “How long will these people refuse to obey my commands and instructions? 29 They must realize that the Sabbath is the Lord’s gift to you. That is why he gives you a two-day supply on the sixth day, so there will be enough for two days. On the Sabbath day you must each stay in your place. Do not go out to pick up food on the seventh day.” 30 So the people did not gather any food on the seventh day."
Exodus 16:1-30
I've done my regular duties again and again..thinking they were not work when indeed they were.
I think it's time I pay more attention to what I read. I asked for a word tonight...and I got one.
Father forgive me for my ignorance. I misread and did not fully ask you to explain the true meaning of your command. I pray that you correct me in the future and guide me down your path of righteousness so that I may glorify your name in everything I do.
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Here I go again
I want to start this blog, as a means of writing down my thoughts. I don't like to talk too much about what I am thinking, but I do enjoy writing. This is a means of expressing what goes on inside of Mary Ann Walker.
I want this blog to document recent events. BIG EVENTS! Small events...it doesn't matter. I will not go into detail tonight, but I will discuss recent I don't know.
Sometimes, I don't even know myself. I have changed so much. I can barely comprise a list of things I like to do. It's almost as if I have forgotten.
Hopefully, this will be therapeutic...and successful in helping me discuss important issues in my life and release anything boxed away. Lord...I pray you help me do this...if it is the right thing to do. Amen
I want this blog to document recent events. BIG EVENTS! Small events...it doesn't matter. I will not go into detail tonight, but I will discuss recent I don't know.
Sometimes, I don't even know myself. I have changed so much. I can barely comprise a list of things I like to do. It's almost as if I have forgotten.
Hopefully, this will be therapeutic...and successful in helping me discuss important issues in my life and release anything boxed away. Lord...I pray you help me do this...if it is the right thing to do. Amen
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